Monday, September 27, 2010

Lessons for an Impatient Gal

I’m a big dreamer and also a very immediate kinda gal. When new ideas are envisioned, I want them to happen NOW! I don't like waiting. I don't want to ponder over the complexities and set out huge plans for the future. I want to move, get on with it and figure things out as I go. Too bad much of life does not agree with this concept. And God being the gentle one that He is, so lovingly guides..."My daughter, patience is a challenge you must master, so let's hit it head on. You shall have many opportunities to embrace this new skill."

{Sigh} Not something this "immediate one" likes to hear...but while in the waiting mode of patience, a wonderful gift was given. I've been able to step back and look at the bigger picture. In the past instead of using new inspirations to move me forward, I allowed these beautiful dreams and visions to haunt my impatient soul.

I can't tell you the hours, months and years that were spent preparing for ideas that have never taken root. Why? What has caused this immediate-doer-kind-of-gal to be halted by every step? Simply put, I quit listening.

Several years out of college there was a panic moment. Plans made for a life and career quickly showed themselves to be the path that should not be taken. Instead of just moving on, I held tightly and didn't want to let go.

I originally went to college for two degrees - American Sign Language and Education. After being in the public school system, it was very apparent that God had different plans and was moving me in a another direction. Without thinking twice, I followed His guidance and switched from being an Education major to a Sociology major my senior year. Ah yes, a change of path. It meant one more year of college, but this immediate gal was up for the challenge. "Okay God. Not sure what you have in mind here, but I'm game."

The next year was amazing! The study of the structure and dynamics of society and their intricate connections to patterns of human behavior was magical! Days and nights filled with sociology, psychology and sign language...I was in heaven!!

After graduation I took a part-time kindergarten teaching job for a very short time, which solidified the notion that God definitely did not intend for me to be in a school teaching role. I continued interpreting for the local university and community college which led to the opportunity of being Coordinator of Services for the Deaf. It was wonderful being in a college setting using the language I so loved.

And then came the day when God asked for another move to something new. "What? No, I must have misunderstood. You really want me to stay here, right God? I switched majors with your new plan in mind and now you're asking me to do something completely out of my realm of experience? But this was the plan! All of these years training, and for what? What else would I do?"

And so I stayed. I didn't listen and the situation became very challenging. The previously felt peace and contentment disappeared. Work was no longer fun. It was always hard work, but now it was strained. The situation became toxic and so the time was at hand to move on, just as God had encouraged months before.

After that I felt lost. My grandmother's health was failing and at the encouragement of my brother, our family moved to be closer to her. I began to throw myself into caring for Grandmother and lost sight of myself and the lessons along the way. God began to show new visions and dreams, but by that time I was so discouraged and disconnected that these new ideas had no place in which to be nurtured. Doubt became my closest friend.

But something had to be done with these I researched, read, studied and began to embrace the hope of new possibilities. Not much happened in the way of these new dreams at the time...they were there just waiting for the right moment when a heart was ready to be connected again.

God used those many years with Grandmother to open the parts of my heart I thought were lost. At Grandmother's knee I learned the art of being in the moment, to offer love in every situation and to never lose sight of His guiding hand. Even though the enormity of the lessons were not grasped at the time, the powerful effect on my spirit has forever changed the way in which I embrace the world.

God can use any time, any stage and any moment for our good. Don't allow discouragement to get you off course. Look for the lessons and you will go far...even if you think you aren't making any progress at all (: The key to your future is time...

"Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world." ~ Harriet Tubman

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  1. Thank you for this post Michele! Its exactly what I needed to hear today. I've been struggling for two years with discouragement and wondering what God has planned for me in this place. He answered many of our prayers with an unexpected move across the country. We have no doubt about His guidance with the move or the timing. But now I feel like Joseph in the dungeon. We have a difficult work situation and no friends, family, or church home. While I'm secure in knowing His plans are always right, it is sometimes difficult to listen and be still to hear and follow them.

  2. Michelle.. I came by to see how things were going here at your blog and... oh my goodness! I don't believe in coincedences.. My oldest son is deaf.. he is 19 and I am a sign language interpreter.. "per say" I don't have my certification, but I interpret where I can.. I am in college getting my Elem. Ed. K-6 degree and I am sooo doing the same things... questioning if I need to be going another direction and what does God want me to do.....? All of that .. I love your post and could stand to learn alot from you! Sooo glad I came by... we will have to talk sometime! I like the Sociology and Psychology route.... interesting.

  3. Oh my, how I can relate to the 'here's the dream, let's get it done!, forget patience' kind of thing. Have you been following my life, or something?! Years of walking with Christ have slowed me donw and helped me to be more patient and not try to rush ahead of His plans. But I can tell you, I still have a long way to go. There are times when it seems like the door is opening for a long time dream, then life throws a big hurdle in the way. Learning to live in the moment, I am finding, is the best way to live. Trusting that He will help me fulfill the dream in His timing and accept His plan for today...a daily choice for me. Not easy but I am learning. So good to know I am not the only one who feels that way!

  4. Lovely post! I really needed that! Love the quote by Harriet Tubman. You have a beautiful blog!


  6. Thanks for a very inspiring post-I plan to reread it from time to time as a reminder to myself to trust, listen, be patient and as He reminds us-- "Be still and know that I am God."
    Your blog is wonderful, by the way:)

  7. It is so true that when we don't listen to our authentic self or follow our own path of truth that things start to go bad really fast. A beautiful share on this day, but you haven't been around in a while. Hope all is well. Best wishes, Tammy

  8. Thank you for this post. It was a blessing to me.

  9. Hi! I found your blog from walk slowly live wildly. I am a fellow traveler and living in Charlotte and would love to meet up!!!! We are family that lives on the road full time. I would love to meet other Charlotte ladies with the same mindset!

  10. Hi Michele, I couldn't sleep, so I'm out visiting. I appreciate your struggles and your lessons. I especially appreciate hearing them tonight. I had surgery a month ago and I have been messed up ever since. I have found that the more I need direction, the more patient I need to be. I need to dig deep! I need to not only pray but fast so that I can humble myself. Some answers come easy and quick, others take a bit of sacrifice. I am like you, through my faith, we will know.

    big hugs

  11. Hi Michele. I stopped by to visit my newest follower, and I'm almost speechless. This post is exactly what I needed to read today. We have been going through an extremely challenging 2 years, and it has been a very difficult and discouraging time. I truly believe God led me to this post. Bless you! Kat

  12. I've been away from blog reading, but with yesterday and today off from work, I have been trying to catch up :o) I noticed that you came by and I wanted to say thank you for stopping in...please come back any time.

    I often find myself wanting things to happen "yesterday"! Or that the Lord would speak audibly and tell me when something will happen! I am in that situation now... my hubby and I are living in a beautiful area, on the coastal part of Georgia, but my heart is so ready to move closer to where our kids are at or will eventually be-in Kentucky. My hubby has been offered another great position in Colorado and it would be so easy to say yes, let's go! But I know that it is a matter of patience and timing and we will be able to move to Kentucky. Not to just leave, for the sake of leaving. I grew up as a military dependent (moving every 2 years) and married military (moving every 3 years), so moving is not something I am hesitant to do.

    Blessings & Aloha!
    It is nice to meet you in this neat world of blogging :o)

  13. Hello Michele,
    It's nice to meet you! Thank you very much for your kind visit to my blog today. You're always welcome to stop by anytime sweet friend.

    Your blog is lovely and this post is inspiring. You are a gifted writer. I enjoyed my first visit.

    Happy fall blessings to you!
    ~Melissa :)

  14. I'm so glad that there is so much we don't understand about time. Our need to control often turns everything into an expectation. I take comfort in knowing that Jesus was always moving but never rushed. Whew.

  15. So glad you found your way to GrannyMountain so that I could find you! What an insightful post, all true. We are on a journey with many forks to the road, all lead back to the main path if we trust in the Lord to guide us. My life has taken many paths and along the way, I've learned important lessons. At 58, I'm grateful for each experience. Come visit me often...

  16. beautifully written an absolutely true! I am easily discouraged, so I'm constantly fighting to remember the encouraging things in life to counter the yucky ones. God's patience with His children truly amazes me! Glad I found your blog today! -diane

  17. Hi Michelle,
    So nice to meet you. I have so enjoyed your lovely blog and your post holds so much truth. I can so relate to your journey.

    Thank you for stopping by and becoming a new follower to my blog. I am also a happy follower here now too.
    Have a wonderful and blessed Fall Friday.
    Hugs, Celestina Marie

  18. Hi Michele~
    What a beautiful post! I know exactly what you speak of! God is patient with us, isn't He? He loves us and wants us to succeed in all that He has destined us to be!
    I trust you are on the path you are to be on and your dreams are being fulfilled!
    Thanks so much for stopping by...and becoming a you recall how you found me? I always think it is interesting to find out "where" my friends have come from!
    I look forward to visiting with you!
    Have a beautiful day~
    ;-D Kathleen

  19. well written! God has been leading me toward giving my time to children. funny thing is, I am a very selfish person and I want my free time to be mine! I was thinking about pulling away from the volunteer work and then, he sends me toward another child in need. And, again, I say yes. What else am I going to do? :-)

  20. Hi Michele,

    Thanks for sharing your journey. I needed to read that today. Patience. I need to be quite sometimes and listen. Have a wonderful week.


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